i entertain myself.

Be aware that the fear or sorrow hanging over your head could be taking its toll on your love life or relationship. If this torment is recurring, realize that it isn’t about what you have done to deserve this, but more about the natural consequences of something you have been unable to see clearly until now. This is about that moment of painful yet necessary realization. You know you can’t go on like this anymore — there is no going back. Inevitable change must come.

(How do they KNOW?!?)